Hitting the Wall

After months of battling what to do with the anxiety attacks and depression and trying to do what we felt the Lord was saying, I hit the wall. Three weeks ago on Sunday I was standing in church for worship and felt NOTHING. Not a thing. I couldn't even pretend to sing the songs. I was completely done and at the end of my rope. I walked out of service crying knowing that something had to give. An intuitive friend saw me walk out and she accompanied me, listened to me and prayed for me.

It was after this that we decided that we had tried natural methods...they weren't working enough. We prayed, we fasted, we went to the Elders for prayer...we did every spiritual thing we knew to do. I don't doubt the Lord told me not to use medication back like I said on 8/25. I think I had to hit bottom to realize medication was the next step.

So, I am 2.5 weeks into medication. I am horribly tired and have lost 12 pounds. I have an annoying ring in my ears but I am pressing on. Everyday gets a little better. My main issue is the anxiety. I ended up at the dr's last week in a panic attack that wouldn't stop. They did an EKG again..glad my ticker is still healthy.

Everyday seems to get a little better. Today was the first day I didn't take a nap. We have been back to homeschooling this week and I can manage the laundry, dishes, ect. Forget showering and going out but hey, baby steps.

The Lord has asked me to walk this openly so I am. I have so much pride over this so I am trying really hard to be open. I've also learned that no one talks about anxiety and depression but it is EVERYWHERE! If I can make one person feel like they are not alone, the walk is worth it.

Sears...Again

I am appalled at the world we live in...especially as women. Society has objectified women and women are buying into it! I am sick at how much skin I see not only at the beach but at the grocery store.

Back in June I had posted about Sears selling posters online which contain very graphic images. As many moms pulled together, Sears pulled the posters. That was short lived. Sears has once again put pornographic posters for sale on their website. After being asked to pull the posters by many advocacy groups, Sears has not been willing to.

I am an activist by nature so boycotting Sears, KMart, and Lands End will be easy for me. I just can't support a company who makes these decisions. Just like how here on GI we will not buy gas at NOCO. They sell porn behind the counter. Ahhh, so frustrating.

If you are interested in joining the fight to remove this type of material from the Sears website, here is the action OneMillionMoms is asking for:

Rather than send an email, I think you'll want to personally contact Sears' corporate headquarters and ask President Bruce Johnson why his company continues to allow "n*de" posters on the Sears website. Let him know we will not shop at Sears, Kmart and Lands' End this Christmas Season until these images are removed from their website. Sears corporate office number is 847-286-2500. I encourage you to be firm in your request to speak with someone in President Johnson's office.

Sears has ignored this problem long enough. It is time we let them hear from us! Please, call Sears president Bruce Johnson today at 847-286-2500. Take it one step further and call your local store manager. Click here to find the number for your local Sears store.